The Monster in the Closet
Over the last week I have been down with a stomach bug. Something that I am certainly not used too for sure. Canceling clients, moving appointments and feeling so incredibly wimpy. All of this to say, that it gave me plenty of time to really look at where I am on this path called LIFE. I really looked at where I am now to how the majority of my life was.
Where my life was, was leading a life through a giant trauma response. Working so hard (50-80 hour work weeks) that at one point I literally thought my job was killing me… all for validation I never received. DOing everything I could for anyone and everyone around me so I would BE liked, respected and loved. Did that work? Fuck NO! BEing so incredibly independent that asking for help was a weakness… and if there was the occasional opportunity to ask for help, the answer was always NO in some ridiculous excuse. So, I would just do it myself in the end. In my mind nobody worked harder than me, nobody could do it better than me and if it needed to BE done correctly I would just do it. Self sacrificing myself along the way.
While I was down this week, it gave me the opportunity to truly BE grateful to not have to push myself into BEing sicker than I was. There was a time that I would have killed myself, sick or not to get everything FINISHED… the cleaning, the work, no resting, all the cooking etc… I was given a gift to see this. That my past trauma did not allow peace. It did not allow me to face the monsters in my closet. I would just keep piling more and more in there until my nervous system was so over stressed.
Interestingly, I started writing a Trauma Course months ago. I am seeing patterns, that people in general are operating from a place of flight or fight and not from a place of healing and clarity. I don’t find this to BE a coincidence that now all of this is coming to the surface for so many. Do you?
Trauma.
Trauma makes part of our soul hurt so deep, the feeling is that NOBODY COULD POSSIBLY UNDERSTAND WHAT I WENT THROUGH. And you are correct. Every Soul BEing has gone through some sort of trauma which then created these coping mechanisms that protected us. However, is it still protecting you? Is your closet overflowing? Is the Monster in the closet still haunting you?
Let me show you a few examples of how trauma can BEgin within our life:
An inquisitive, sensitive child always asking questions to the point an adult yells “JUST SHUT UP!!!” which creates an adult who will not speak. They will not speak their truth, their opinion or their thoughts on any or most level for fear to BE shut down. Most of these adults have some sort of addiction.
The child who grew up in a home with combative parents who fought multiple times a week. This child does not like confrontation. Will most likely BE a people pleaser and will self sacrifice to “make them feel better or happy”.
The siblings who grew up with one observing the other BEing abused. The abused child is a strong willed, every independent person, who most likely experienced various other forms of trauma as an adult. (sexual abuse, domestic violence)
The child who observed the abuse of their sibling very well blocked the trauma and has addictive tendencies. They cannot get settled within their life. Unconsciously feeling unaccomplished as they could not do anything as a child to help their sibling.
Do you see how the Monster in the Closet has held you back? When you read this post, what comes to mind? The very first thing, that you know created a trauma response within your soul? Are you ready to release the monster? To face IT, to regain your POWER back?? Life can BE bright. Happy. Blissful. Something I genuinely never thought I would experience.
The course HEAL DEEP is a 6 week course to dig deep into healing the monster in the closet. One piece at a time. I am collaborating with Amy McFadden on this course and she will BE showing your Human Design that you came into this life with… your SOUL PATH. I will BE working each week to heal and let go of those traumas that are no longer serving you today. That you have allowed to take your power.
I am offering an EARLY BIRD SPECIAL to anyone who enrolls within this course BEfore the 15th of August. The course will BE launched August 23rd. This is a HUGE opportunity for a 6 week course. USE PROMO CODE: SAVE20
In Love, Light & Grace,
DeAna
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